When I started this blog, I wanted it to be a really funny retelling of all the chaos that went on in my life while raising kids. But I haven’t had time to blog. I barely have time to shower.
When they announced fiveish weeks ago school would be out, I decided I was going to do ALL THE THINGS. I finally would have time since I wasn’t psychically at school and running around like a crazy person trying to get from one place to another and BE ON TIME. Actually, my favorite phrase went from “WE ARE GOING TO BE LATE” (before this pandemic) to “Please don’t make a mess… I JUST CLEANED THE HOUSE.” (during the pandemic.) So back to all the things… I was excited. I needed a break from it all. I envisioned playing with my kids, cooking homemade meals, teaching my boys the alphabet, potty training… the list goes on. It was pretty extensive.
Anyways, here are the things I have actually done:
- “Tried” to clean.. and keep my house clean. But with two toddlers thats a joke.
- Painted the boys room. This one has actually been a success.
- Kept my kids alive.
- Did about a weeks worth of 4K homework with Ems.
- Fought with Sam about doing her e-Learning.
- Fed my kids countless snacks. Because now they are out of school they NEVER STOP EATING. Actually, that goes for me too.
- Laundry, laundry, MORE laundry.
- Nap. I LOVE NAPS.
That’s about it. Which brings me to my next thought. This time of weird stuff hasn’t been easy. Being home not being able to go out isn’t my thing. I feel like I am stuck in some weird version of groundhogs day: mom edition.
However, this is not my time to:
-Be super hard on myself for the things I think I should be doing but am not. (Like that perfect house, or teaching my kids the alphabet and so on)
-Have a clean house. One day I will, but now is not the time. It will be messy for the foreseeable future.
-Stress about if my kids watch too much tv if I need a break.
-Feel guilty for not cooking homemade meals each night.
-Feel like I am not good enough during this weird time.
This is my time to:
-Do what I can. I can’t do it all, but I can prioritize things.
-Rest, nap and relax. Things will go back to normal eventually, but now is the best to recharge.
-Spend time making memories with my kids. Even if that means countless messes. Just embrace the mess.
-Do little projects that I never had time to.
-Be grateful and pray.
Even though this feels like a forever thing, I know it’s not. I know I am not alone in feeling in a funk through all of this. Thank you to all the moms posting about their messy house too. We just have to embrace the chaos.