What battle are you fighting?

Guys, if this is you, I feel you.  I am physically running on empty.  Nine days of work until summer break.  I can do it, I can do it…

Not to mention that my car also needs gas… Ironic?

Tonight I was in the middle of getting some toys together to give away, so I was in the playroom.  The babies were in the boy’s room.  Silence filled the air.  Silence and toddlers don’t mix.

I went into the room to check on them.  It wasn’t a pretty sight.



Ray: “What is that?”

Me: “Desitin.”

Ray is looking at me, trying not to laugh.  He keeps repeating, “This is not funny.  I won’t laugh.”  Meanwhile, I am laughing hysterically.

Ems and Nolie took the Desitin and rubbed it all over their furniture and themselves.  Let’s look at the positives here: at least it was Desitin and nothing truly disgusting.  It was an easy cleanup.  But honestly, it was hilarious.  I think it was so funny because it was so normal for us.

Lincoln, on the other hand, is not wearing Desitin.  He is covered in sour cream.  How do you get Lincoln to eat his dinner?  Drench it in sour cream.  My kids are fanatical about sour cream.

Who’s on cleanup?

Yesterday, I was packing the car to leaving my mom’s and come back home.  I was making multiple trips to and from the car to pack it up, get my kids together and get to church by 10:30.  I caught myself thinking about Danielle Busby from the show Outdaughtered.  If you haven’t seen the show, she has quintuplets and one older daughter.  It’s a good show.

But I was thinking, “She has six kids.  She always looks so put together, her house is pretty intact, she looks like she has her life together.  She has six kids, I only have 5.  My house is a disaster, I’m going to be late for church, I don’t have my kids together, I’m missing a shoe… I can’t do this.”  The negative thoughts went on.  I was hot, I was frustrated and I was exhausted.  The night before, Ems and Nolan were keeping me up.  My husband wasn’t here to help, and I had to make a two and a half hour drive home after church.

I went to church, although I was late, and listened to the sermon.  The preacher was talking about Saul’s jealousy over David.

Wait… this is what I felt this morning.  Isn’t it funny that God sends you the exact message you need to hear at just the right time?  The truth is I do feel jealousy over people who look like they have it all together.  I never feel like I do. I am always missing something, something is always dirty, someone is ALWAYS hungry… However, the preacher also pointed out that jealousy rots your bones.  If you are jealous of a person, you don’t love them.  You should love them and want their successes for them.  Woah.  How powerful.

This week, my goal is to let my jealousy go.  We are all fighting our own battles.  There is nothing to be jealous of.



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